Missing Midi and Nathan

I miss my friend Midi and her sweet son Nathan on such a deep level that at times, I can't even get to that place. Even 3 months later, it still feels so unreal. I've been to weddings, showers, Bible studies, Sunday Church services, gatherings of friends where Midi should have been. And instead her absence. I'm not sure I'll ever get used to it. I really miss my friend and still cry often.

I marvel at her husband Mark, and even more at God who sustains him. Mark is hurting so deeply and yet he is comforted and knowing God in deeper ways than he ever has before. Now I know that God can actually be very real in times of great suffering. I highly recommend reading his blog. He is insightful, self aware, and vulnerable. Be prepared. Have time. I always have myself a good cry after I read it. Midi's best friend, Anne, also has started a blog to help her process her loss. I find it helpful to read how those closest to the situation are doing. And they motivate me to not run from the pian but to face it, reflect on it, be met by God in it.